Never give up

Sometimes we lose faith and focus.
And it isn't just one person; its all of us. We tend to think or act on our own selfish needs and forget that it is not all about us. In a relationship, nothing is ever about just you. If you can't handle or deal with that, then DO NOT attempt to ask anyone to be in a relationship with you and do not accept anyones invitation to be in one. You both will only get hurt once shit gets real. Once feelings are involved, do not fuck around and hurt each other. Especially if your ass is one sensitive mother fucker.
Jus remember if you do lose sight of the important things and shit goes down, never give up the fight. Any relationship can work if you want it bad enough

First

It was amazing. Her legs tremble every time I kiss a spot on her leg. My tongue caresses the outline of her hips. The smooth curve where hips meet ass..I never knew. So many crevices. But they all excite her in a way that brings music to my ears. Her heavy breathing. Her frequent intakes of breath. The little moans that she is unaware that have escaped her lips. The murmors of surprise and bliss. "Aah." "Fuck." "Oh shit!" When her words jumble together and a sweet smile finds its place on my lips. The smell of her passion mixed with her excitement mixed with her natural scent has sent me over the edge. I doubt she'd scream my name but it's worth a try. My hands place hers on my head. With every lick she grips my hair and her legs shake. When my tongue hits that sweet spot and she pushes my head deeper into her sex. My nose on her clit and my tongue exploring her walls. When she finally erupts depositing her cream on my tongue, lips and chin. It was all worth it.

Decisions

What are we really doing here? Most times when it's good, it's great. But when it's bad, it's awful. Why can no one put their pride to the side? Why is everyone else's views what matters most? Why do things end up being awkward? As best friends, it shouldn't constantly come to this. It's like one of us is always doing wrong. Is that really what we fight for? To be right? To love the most? To survive together? Shit gets shakey and then Niggas give up. Love is about being there with the good times. The smiles, the laughter, the hugs, the embraces, the kisses ..all that good shit. But it's also about being there through the bad. The awkward. The tears. The breakdowns. The arguments. The tantrums. If you can't be there then, then what purpose is there. ...... ...........??

why be in a relationship …

Why be in a relationship
Where it seems like things just don't work out?
Why be in a relationship
Where you always have to try & work silly things out?
Why be in a relationship
Where you feel as if you are always causing problems?

I'm not going to sit here and constantly blame myself everytime
Because I hate too see you down when I fuck up.
I'm not going to constantly have you annoyed with me
Because I get mad at you.
Because somehow some way, something always gets said
And we end up feeling a type of way.

Have you ever gone through a "same shit, different day" sccenario
Everyday for a good two months?
You wouldn't understand the struggles we go through.
But upon hearing or reading this, you'll probably wonder
So why do I stay?

If someone asks you why you love them, you shouldn't be able to explain.
Love knows no boundaries.
It can also make you do & say things you've never thought possible.
Hiding weed for your boyfriend even if there's a chance that you might go down with him when the feds come knocking.
Hiding the bruises every few months ..to every few weeks..to every few days.
Because you love her and you believe she loves you.
You say she's just going through things but she cares about you.
She apologizes every time and promises to stop.
And you stay.
No one on the outside will ever understand.

Why stay in a relationship
Where you don't know what tomorrow will bring?
Where you fear to remember yesterday in spite of angering her?
Where you tiptoe around so as not to stir her up?

Unless you've ever been in my shoes,
Don't question me.

The good times weigh out the bad by a million times.
But when you think about the bad,
You really wonder to yourself,
"Is it that bad or am I just imagining this?"

tonight is just like any other night

Ever woke up and realized you had the girl of your dreams?
Ever wanted to show this girl that she means the WORLD and universe to you?
Ever smile just seeing her or thinking of her smile, eyes, humor, personality, issues?
Ever constantly fuck up and think you're gonna lose her?

Every morning I wake up and this girl is the first thought on my mind.
Then I check my phone to see that she's left something sweet for me to read..hopefully.
Honestly, she never really leaves me sweet nothings to read when I wake.
But I always hope that when she misses me like she says, she'll get up the courage to write me in the middle of the night.
It never happens though.

Somehow after all the good times we have, we have those rough nights.
The saying "same shit, different day" just happens to wrap itself around our lives.
And we let it attempt to tear us apart.
But we realize that what we have is worth way more than the shitty arguments or the things that don't matter as much as [you & I]

She's my world.
Everyday I try to show her that.
She can't read my mind and I can't read hers.
I can't be there for her all the time but she doesn't mind.
I would go beyond the end of the horizon for her
And she constantly goes over the top to please me.

We sacrifice things to make each other happy.
At the end of the day, the sacrifices we make don't even compare to half of what we gained.
She is my star.
She is my light.
She is my heart.

~te amo mi amor