Afraid to Be so I Am

Always fuckin forced Because I can’t make the hard decision for myself. Always a fuckin idiot who moves too impulsively when it comes to love Always wondering how Long someone will stay Then the endings are arduous And both parties are unhappy Focusing on me has never really been a thing Because there are years and years and years of shit I know it isn’t pretty and I do the best I can to keep it in Yet, here they all are. Staring me in my fuckin face Calling me their comfortable names A disgrace, a disappointment, a fool A common idiot All because im afraid of myself. The shit im capable of is absolutely magnificent But I hate ordeals - Im afraid to be worthy ?